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PLEASE HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!! I REALLY NEED SOME ADVICE!!!!!!!!!!
I am so sorry but this might take me ages to expalin...PLEASE HELP!!!!!!!!!!
hi, i really need some advice....
it's just when I was in primary school I fell in love with a boy called Skye............

It's just wnen I met Skye in primary school i grew more and more fond of him until i knew I was in love with him. However I wasn't sure whether he actually LOVED me or not altough there were times when I felt like he did.
It's just that in his final year of primary (he was a year younger than me you see) whilst I was at high school. My sister was then at his school and she told me that he said to someone 'I'm not going to some rubbish school like 'name of school' Community High school'. Now if he'd have LOVED me would't he have been more upset about not going to my school?? I am just VERY confused.
Also I found out from a source (it would take me too long to expalain how I found this out) that he had said to his friends (after I had sent him countless Valentine's cards) that Skye had said (about me)in a not particularly nice voice by the way she said it(that's if she was telling the truth) 'there's this girl who REALLY fancies me'. But then I also found out that he had apparantly turned down an invitation to go out with another girl because he had said he liked me. (also i heard he had gone around saying that i was really clever!!!!...by the way this is one coment which makes me think that he wouldn't fancy me when he knows about me getting no GCSEs) But if he'd have LOVED me would he have said something like 'there's this girl that REALLY fancies me' and ''I'm not going to some rubbish school.........'??? which i didn't think were very nice things to say.
I can't tell...and would appreciate an outside opinion. Do you think he LOVED me (like I loved him) or do you think he just fancied me. is the only way to have found out/find out to have asked/to ask him. It's just I really would appreciate your opinion on this (I just need an honest answer no matter what that may be) Do you think he LOVED me or not...or only fancied me???If he loved me then why would he have chosen to go to the private school rather than my school??Or would the only way to tell be to ask him. (which I can't possibly do) It's just I loved him. can you offer me any advice on this...as I really cannot sort my head out...and cannot work it out.
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My Problem is this:
When I was in primary school I fell in love with someone called Skye
But then when it came too high school, he got sent to a private all boy's school far away and I got sent to the local comprehensive.
I thought I'd NEVER see him EVER again and despaired.
Around about the same time my Grandmother of whom I was VERY close to died. She practically raised me.My mother never seemed to bother with me. However I never noticed this neglect (by my mother)until my Grandma died.
I noticed that I was very unsupported by my mother and in general uncared for. Sometimes she was also emotionally abusive towards me--sometimes she could be so nasty she'd make me cry.
Because of all these things(the death of my Grandma, the loss of Skye and also the uncaring attituse at home) I began to feel very depressed.
Then I made a TERRIBLE mistake:
Somedays I felt so low I found it almost impossible to think about the future and sometimes couldn't find the will-power to get up in the mornings.I started to refuse to go to school asn I felt so low. I'd been bullied VERY VERY badly at the primary school i went to (before I moved to the one Skye was at)which also made me quite nervous of people and scared of school too.However I recieved no help, no counselling or anything(do you think this was neglect?)
I refused to go to High school on-and-off for the first three years by which time I was REALLY REALLY very behind in my work.I then refused to go to school altoghether as I couldn't cope any more with my life. I was SEVERELY depressed and wasn't thinking logically. I ended up having 5 measly hours of home tuition per week, for the next two years which should have been spent in school. Unsurprisingly I then failed all my GCSEs (apart from one, where I got a 'C' in English)I felt so depressed. I then have stayed at home doing nothing for the past two years as I have felt too embarrassed to face the world.
However this is my problem: (of which i really need your advice on)
I now want??/need to go to college. However I have just found out thet the college I wanted to attend is right next door to the top educational sixth form which Skye goes to. If I go there then I will definantely bump into him…but the thing is he will NEVER EVER be interested in me now (even if he used to be when I was ok).how on earth canI explain to him WHY I refused to go to school? He’s going to think I am a bad person .
But the thing is he's studyiwng 'A' levels at a top sixth form college. And I .....will probably have to go on an Entry level course and learn really basic stuff like how to cook, use public transport etc(basically for absolute dim-wits)
He'll NEVER EVER be interested in me now. He's in a different league to me. He's so clever.but this is killing me. I wish I could be with him more than anything in the world but as soon as he finds out that's it....my dream...dead......finished
Also even if I go to a different college, it's inevitable that i'll bump into him whilst out and about anyway.(I just can’t believe that I DIDN’T THINK ABOUT THIS years ago….i just wasn’t thinking properly) But If I ignore him then he'll think I'm not interested i him, when I am. But if I talk to him he'll not like me anyway when he finds out what I've done. He'll think I;m a terrible person.
The thing is (and I really need your help on this) HOW ON EARTH DO I EXPLAIN TO HIM ABOUT HOW I REFUSED TO GO TO SCHOOL--AND WORST OF ALL WHY? HE'LL NOT THINK VERY WELL OF ME ONCE I'VE TOLD HIM. I'M not going to lie. I need him to know the truth.my other problem is that when I refused to go to school--s did my sister(only she didn't have a valid reason) she simply wouldn't go just because I was off school and didn't see why she should go either.HOW ON EARTG CAN I EXPLAIN TO HIM HOW MY SISTER IS NOW IN THE SAME SITUATION I'M IN?HE'LL THINK MY FAMILY ARE AWFUL. I AM 18 YEARS old now btw...and am getting severely worried about my future.
Even worse,.... believe it or not I think he may actually be looking for me. He drove down my lane and turned around in the drive ....also I have seen him riding his bike outside of my house. What should I do? It is only a matter of time before he finds me? What on earth am I going to say about what I did? I love him and couldn't bear to lose him.....but as soon as i tell him about me refusing to got to school he'lll think I'm a terrible person...and when he hears that I will probably have to start on an entry level course he will NEVER ever be interested/want to do out with me now. ....HELP ME PLEASE!!!!!!!! wHAT CAN i DO? I think I'll die of pain if I lose him.I love him and I can't believe the awful situation that I've got myself into. What should I do??????? HELP!!!!!! I CAN'T HANDLE THIS!!!!!!
THIS IS THE END OF EXPLAINING THE WHOLE SITUATION. i JUST NEEDED TO FIND OUT THE ANSWER TO THE QUESTION :
Do you think Skye ever loved me or just fancied me??? PLEASE HELP ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!PLEASE COULD YOU REPLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM REALLY NOT UNDERSTANDING HIM!!!! can you offer me any advice?? Did he love me?? Do boys love girls in a different sort of way to what girls love boys?? Or did he simply not love me?? His comments are confusing.PLEASE HELP!!!!! Did he love me.......or not...? This is really important to me. PLEASE be honest!!!!!!!
I also have another question: it's just I have thought about asking Skye if he would consider going out with me when he comes back from University.(by which time I might have been able to catch up a bit in college and might not be so dim) What do you think about this idea?
DID SKYE EVER LOVE ME?? AND WHAT SHOULD I DO ABOUT SKYE NOW? CAN YOU OFFER ME ANY ADVICE!!!!!!!!

[Sparklechick]

My advice is this:

- forget about him, if it was meant to be then your paths will cross. This is someone you fell in love with at Primary School !!! You will probably fall into and out of love a fair few more times before you settle down with someone.

You are young, you've got plenty of time to sort out what you want relationship-wise.

You should probably concentrate on what you want to do with your life job-wise or academically. Don't let your feelings for him cloud your judgement on your life and future.

Have you considered seeing a counsellor? Your school should have one so perhaps you should go and see him/her.