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I do not judge selfish and petty people too quickly these days.
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Well you don't need to be nasty to others to be kind to yourself. In Buddhism we have a concept of the middle path. Not being too good nor too bad, being generous of character, but not a sucker to others because we lack self esteem.
Learning self esteem is a big challenge in life. Some people go through life never doubting themselves, but they have as much character and personality as a watermelon. Hard on the outside and no substance on the inner.
Others of us have to struggle for acceptance and place in the sun much of our lives, so when we get older and we have put our own needs on hold for others to get approval and affection, we find we don't have much to show for it.
Work on yourself to build self esteem. Set boundaries for him and for you. Set limits on how much you will sacrifice and watch your thoughts. Arrest them when you find yourself caving in to anxiety to please others. Replace that bad habit with one of subtle strength. Don;t ask permission. Just do it but let conscience be your guide because becoming a bully yourself solves nothing.
In Buddhism we have a law called the mystic law, that like attracts like. As you grow out of your old personality and shed that old skin you will also shed relationships which are no longer relevant and you will attract someone right.
Just change within and the rest will happen by itself.